I got sent home from work 2day, i didnt feel very well. I could have stayed i think but they told me not too & they said not to go in tomorrow. Trouble is i needed 2 pull a sicky on thursday as i have my theory exam. Oooh noooo. now im stuffed. I feel really shitty (excuse the french). I feel really exhausted. its not like i do much to get exhausted. My mum reckons its stress & the routine that i am in (i stay at my bfriends everynight & he drops me home at 6.30 in the morning on his way to work, then i have to get ready & go out the door for work). Every half hour i feel my eyes welling up with tears...oh god what have i turned into. This makes me feel guilty cos i have absolutely nothing to be stressed about apart from my work & money situation. Maybe a trip to the docs is in order. aaarrrgggghhh i dont know. My belly hurts! x x x

Im sat here listening to the beautiful beyonce's new song & updating my ipod.
Todays been a nice day, just been doing nothing really, hanging out with dan which we dont get to do much of so its a treasure when it happens.
My best mate is giving birth in about a months time, im quite scared. Ive never had babies in my life so (sounds silly), they make me nervous, they're so fragile, im scared i'll hurt them. Lol. Im thinking of writing a very emotional letter to her, because we've come to another path of our lives, etc. What do u think??? Too cheesy or nice thought.

I did something stupid yesterday - i realised that i had my theory test (driving)booked for last week, i thought it was this week. How stupid am i?? So i lost out on my money. I tried to get out of it with some lies but it never wrked, i couldnt exactly argue with them as it was my stupid fault!! Ive decided though that its just fate playing a part in my life...i obviously wasnt ready to take the test. x x x x

You know when you just want some peace & quiet.....Just for a day, u dont mind if people are around but if they make noise you get really edgey!!! Thats me today, but i am having no peace & quiet atall......instead dan thought its funny to actually put the base box on while he's on the xbox!

Ive eaten so much today...im trying to loose weight & this isnt the way to do it! No way, so ive decided that when (Which as you all know isnt very often) when i blog, im going to add in each time how my plan to loose weight is going. Starting from today!! Us girls ay, why do we worry so much???

Kickboxing later....i'll put my all in...the punch bag might want to keep away from me tonight! Im on one!!!

I dont really know how to explain this blog. I kinda feel like i shouldnt be telling anyone, but then i feel like i need to get it off my chest.

I cant get someone out my brain, i should be able to, easy, just like that. I have a wicked ass boyfriend who i love to death....so why is he stuck there. Maybe its just lust but all i know is its terrifying.

He doesnt provoke anything to make me feel this way, or maybe he's doing it secretly. Sometimes he makes me feel like im so special to him other times he makes me feel like im just a game. AAAAAhhhhhhhh. I need a new head...something else to think about!

I wanted to write a blog today.....but i have no idea what to write about. I like to make things interesting you see (im a bit of a perfectionist), but i just cant seem to find things that are of interest so today im going to write about the last few days of my life. Hope you all find it interesting enough!

Okay, so where shall i start? My new job. I started working in next on friday, i am enjoying it but its just so hard to interact there...no1 seems to want to talk. Now i could get offended & start thinking its just me they dont want to talk to but NO1 talks to ANY1! So im not going to take it to heart. Its pretty boring aswell. Im defiantely missing working in a salon & doing treatments so im just going to keep looking until i find something. I have some treatments booked in the week so i will carry on looking forward to that.

 

I went to a wedding last night, I hate going to weddings for the simple fact it just makes me want to get married more & more! I never wanted to get married a couple of years ago but the last few months ive really started wanting to. Dan wants to get married but he wants children first as it'll be good if they could be there - so i need to start forgetting about marriage as im not having kids for a long time yet so marriage is way off!

 

Now i think people should tell me what to write about & i'll try my best to make it interesting. Any idea's people????